No point waiting now. Because its over even before it started. More possibly it was my fault for thinking too much. For wishing too much. For hoping too much. Maybe i just wanted too much out of you.
ButI can't help myself. I tried to forget and I tried to move on. Nothing works that way anymore. The heart tries to be strong but its crumbling. How silly of me to give my love to you like loose change when all I'll ever be to you is like a bad penny in the rain.
Maybe I should have given up a long time ago instead of trying harder. Then maybe I wouldn't shed these tears. I'm chained to the ground and I can't get up. Its like both our worlds crashing down upon me. I can keep on wishing for fairytales but then I'll just be lying to myself. And I'm done with that. I'm done with alot of things.
I told myself that I want to change. I did, I told myself. but I keep falling to the same trap. I'm not stupid and I'm not helpless. But I continue to do so. This time, its enough.

This is my imaginary goodbye to someone who never should have been a part of my life.